Starving artist, I know you never ate much but is it worse than living in a cultureless culture that doesn’t care for what you bleed over? Yeah, I know the shame, having to hide the name of your calling like an exiled love just to stay above the guilt of loving something you can’t explain in financial form. You’re starving your soul if you fucking have one. This depleted life it makes me wonder why people carry torches, I’d burn myself alive because what we value, people just don’t care, they say we’re misled say we’re unaware but when you constantly embrace the fact that you haven’t got your life on track nothing really means much. Nothing matters but what you love but I don’t know if I can take another half century of wallowing in this shit. I don’t think I ever claimed to know anything about how to live, I can only measure my pain. And I’ve felt true anguish but I hate this more and I think I want to give in if this is all that’s in store. But maybe I can change and learn how to cope with the fact that I’ll never have understood goals. I’ll take the time to create my own version of god, find love, lose profit and then die like a dog.
My Fictions - I Want Nothing
Clear w/black smoke, /250 (2nd Press)
where can I get this
tumblr didn’t have it cuz all the cool powerviolence crusties think emotive hardcore is uncool
acrossthewoundedgalaxies asked: Props to you guys for not only writing some of the coolest music (I Want Nothing was the record that got me into screamo/heavier hardcore) and putting out merch with awesome designs, but using quality shirts for said merch. I bought the IWN shirt like two years ago now and it's still in perfect shape, whereas shirts I've bought as recently as a month ago already have pinholes.
Well thanks a lot, friend. Glad that shirt’s still kickin’. Haven’t seen one of those in a while.
Your boys doing it big in this month’s @AltPress. Might be the only band in here w/ a promo from a disposable camera.
One of the most Beautiful songs ever written.
I can’t escape these walls i’ve built to keep you safe, to keep you in.
If you will never see them, if you will never come.
Nights alone have ruined me, I’m wrong again, i’m starved again
Alone again, alone again, alone alone alone.
I’m hearing you repeat the old, familiar phrase “I just can’t cope”
I say I feel it too.
but camaraderie in suffering.
It feels like speaking tongues, maybe i’m lying if i’m still not close to you. Because after all this time I fall asleep just fine,
no matter how it hurts I fall asleep just fine
maybe im meant to be alone if I can’t pull these parts together…
I’ve probably had enough time to sort this troubled mind to structure.
So when you’ve had enough of being stuck with “given up” please don’t apologise because i’ll understand just fine.
Another bad night we failed; playing a losing game, we cannot create the same feelings, comfort is not love.
But is it close enough?
I feel alone again. It’s setting in, I’m learning how to settle.
Please don’t give in.
When you are close, I am gone.
Because where I am I won’t stay long. And I know it’s hard.
To wait for me when i’m afraid to let you near, but please don’t give in, i’ll clear my head one day.
I’ll make you proud of me. Please don’t give in.
Won’t always be so down. Please don’t give in.
I will be closer to you Please don’t give in.
We are all scared.
We are all stuck
Dreaming of better days that will never come.
Let it go!
Bring that smile back, Let it go!
You know that we want you here. Please stop! blacking out your days.
Please stop! saying we will be better off without you.
We will always find new ways to let each other down.
New ways to scare ourselves, so if this is what you hold onto I will protect it.
We burn with friendly fire.
Breath quick with anticipation.
Our imaginations will crush us but it is so hard to impress you when you’ve built these walls so high.
But I want in.
Tear you open leave you breathless and longing.
Show you that you are more than what you lack
I keep reminding myself I didn’t fall in love to fall apart.
But I still believe in us.
We can right this ship.
If they don’t put us away we will be legend.
Save me, Save me,
Handcuff me to this bed, let me sweat through the sheets.
Until the voices stop and the hum quietly says your name,
until I find a better way to say that I love you.
I want to know it doesn’t hurt; just remember that I knew you then and I will always come back for you.
I want to know it doesn’t hurt you,
I will come back for you.
I will come back.
Anonymous asked: yeah the noose shirt might be the raddest looking thing ever just sayin
the literal dude http://rainbathv.tumblr.com/
Anonymous asked: Should I get the noose shirt or rites of spring shirt?
noose shirt is probably my favorite shirt we’ve ever done, you’ll look pretty dang cool in it. the ROS shirt is cheaper though. you will still look cool in it, but i’d go with noose.